Only God knows when.......

Hey there! So, those of you whom really know me, know that its very rare to see me soooooo negative! Trust me when i say, I'm trying so hard with all of my might not to be! My last post was just a little too happy go lucky! Considering all of our ducks were not "in a row" like we had thought. So instead of our December 7th as our ivf date, we are looking more like February i believe! Now don't get me wrong, that is still very soon.....for anyone else.....but as for me...ughhhhhhhh!!!!!!! Seriously! I am waiting even more! So, i did have a Lil.....break down... OK maybe a big one! But, wouldn't you after waiting that long? 4 and a half years....but who's counting! okay, so now that I'm done with my tantrum ya know the count down chains till Christmas that we made as kids? Yep, I made that puppy with felicity to give me a lil something to be positive about! It will be a count down until the ivf! Kind of fun for everyone! Mattix is so excited to count down with me! I am pretty blessed! I do have the most amazing lil man in the world! Proud mommy moment! His conference with his teacher went AMAZING!!!!!! That's right! I knew he is something special! Also, i explained to mattix that we were getting close to the ivf and that mommy might be sick. He asked a lot of questions, which i love! He was too sweet and asked if he could name the baby and pick out its first Halloween costume! Ummmmmm duh! I love that he wants to be sooooo involved! He told me he only wants a brother though.....I'll see what i can do.. ha ha!  So, lets hope for that February date, or sooner! Also, I really want to Thank everyone who commented on my post the other day about mattix not being an only child any more! I didn't realize that I would be giving him a best friend for life! Trust me, I have two sisters! It might not always be roses but I do always know, that we will ALWAYS be there for each other no matter what! So, Thank you so much for all the positive thoughts and encouragement! I do Have faith in God that he will bless us with more lil babies soon! He already gave me the most amazing blessing ever MATTIX!!!!! I cant say it enough! I love being his mom! Any positive thoughts and help would be LOVED by me! So, until i have more news....still waiting for baby Flint! xoxo

here we goooooo...........

hi everyone! I know that it has been awhile since my last post! We have been busy bees!  As of right now, we have our IVF date set for December 7! eeeekkkkkk! So there are many exciting things about this date! For one, its my hubbys birthday and secondly, we found out that mattix was a boy 7 years ago for jds birthday! So, i really hope that jds birthday brings lots of luck! Many of you may not know all the ins and outs of this whole process, but I'm learning as i go. Yesterday i had a water sonogram they explained to me that since i had the hsg testing that this would be a breeze. Now i had an hsg test about a year ago, this test is a dye pushed through your tubes to make sure that they are open. I didn't hurt too bad and only gave me a small amount of discomfort. Yes, i was very nervous going in yesterday. Not only am i starting everything, i am also taking time away from mattix. For those of you that really know me, this is very stressful! Mattix is everything to me and i love every second of being his mommy! Well, here we go. Into the room for my water sonogram.....easy peasy.........UGHHHHHHHH! Not! This was more painful that i thought! I would describe it as having contractions for an hour plus after, with no baby after the pain......All i can say is i hope this baby knows how badly we want him/her! But on a good note, they said my tubes look good and we are ready to go forward! Now, i start my inject ables and all my other meds to get me all ready to give our soon to be baby a nice home for 9 months! Inject ables raise a lil bit of a problem considering i pass out when i see needles.....sooooooo, my amazing friend felicity ( love her) Has agreed to give me my shots when jd isn't home to do so. I do have to say that Felicity and Jd have really been my rocks through all of this! I don't know what i would do without their love and endless support! Any words of wisdom? I'm open to hear of any help! Here we gooo........ until my next post, still waiting for baby flint! xoxo