Only God knows when.......

Hey there! So, those of you whom really know me, know that its very rare to see me soooooo negative! Trust me when i say, I'm trying so hard with all of my might not to be! My last post was just a little too happy go lucky! Considering all of our ducks were not "in a row" like we had thought. So instead of our December 7th as our ivf date, we are looking more like February i believe! Now don't get me wrong, that is still very soon.....for anyone else.....but as for me...ughhhhhhhh!!!!!!! Seriously! I am waiting even more! So, i did have a Lil.....break down... OK maybe a big one! But, wouldn't you after waiting that long? 4 and a half years....but who's counting! okay, so now that I'm done with my tantrum ya know the count down chains till Christmas that we made as kids? Yep, I made that puppy with felicity to give me a lil something to be positive about! It will be a count down until the ivf! Kind of fun for everyone! Mattix is so excited to count down with me! I am pretty blessed! I do have the most amazing lil man in the world! Proud mommy moment! His conference with his teacher went AMAZING!!!!!! That's right! I knew he is something special! Also, i explained to mattix that we were getting close to the ivf and that mommy might be sick. He asked a lot of questions, which i love! He was too sweet and asked if he could name the baby and pick out its first Halloween costume! Ummmmmm duh! I love that he wants to be sooooo involved! He told me he only wants a brother though.....I'll see what i can do.. ha ha!  So, lets hope for that February date, or sooner! Also, I really want to Thank everyone who commented on my post the other day about mattix not being an only child any more! I didn't realize that I would be giving him a best friend for life! Trust me, I have two sisters! It might not always be roses but I do always know, that we will ALWAYS be there for each other no matter what! So, Thank you so much for all the positive thoughts and encouragement! I do Have faith in God that he will bless us with more lil babies soon! He already gave me the most amazing blessing ever MATTIX!!!!! I cant say it enough! I love being his mom! Any positive thoughts and help would be LOVED by me! So, until i have more news....still waiting for baby Flint! xoxo